There is nothing worse than feeling like the life you are living is closing in around you like a prison cell. You feel completely trapped with where you are, who you are, and what you are doing that you’re just suffocating. Every day you’re craving for some way to break out of the loop you have found yourself stuck in. But you aren’t content with just trivial means of breaking up your daily routine. That’s not enough anymore. You need something big.
The thing is, you’re just so bored and sick of the life you are currently living. Perhaps you’re like me and you’re a senior in college. We’re coming to the end of our fall semester and everyone is around you saying “You’re almost done! You’re gonna make it!” That’s great and all, but here’s my response to that: I don’t care. I don’t care that I’m almost done. I’m so sick of sitting in classrooms having the same things shoved down my throat and being asked to spit it back to professors in the forms of tests and papers. I’m tired of writing pointless paper after pointless paper. I’m tired of this mundane routine.
I’m tired of wasting my energy on things that I just do not care about anymore. I’m sick of the same old thing, day after day. I’m not accomplishing anything with life where I am currently and that frustrates me. I no longer feel like my life is really my life. I’m not doing what I want to do, I’m doing what others expect me to be doing. I’m doing the things that reassure others around me that I am on a path to success. My life has become this perfectly constructed show that is put on for everyone around me.
But I’m tired of putting on the show that everything is great and I’m happy with where I am in life. Because I’m not. I’m not happy with any aspect of my life currently. I have spent my whole life being forced into situations that I did not want to deal with, being told who I should be, what I should do with my life, what I shouldn’t do with my life, etc. I would love nothing more than to pack up the bare essentials and buy a one way ticket to somewhere and just see where life takes me. But I’m also afraid, because not only is it a very scary idea to simply drop everything and leave, I know there are many people who would be angry, upset, and so very confused. But I have to admit, it is getting harder every day, and that day where I finally break and buy that ticket to somewhere and disappear might be approaching sooner than you think.
