All of my life, I have never had an issue making friends-- it's almost been as easy as riding a bike for me. I have always been friends with different cliques, different organizations, and different backgrounds of life. I am a bubbly, outgoing, sociable person; how couldn't I want to be friends with everyone? I went eighteen years without meeting someone that treated me like I was invisible, until I met you. Sometimes I am extremely blessed to have you in my life and then you make me feel worthless about myself, making me wish that I never did. I often think to myself, "I need new friends," but yet do nothing about this.

Why?

Maybe it's because I believe there is good in everyone-- I always hold on to the faith that yours will show more than yesterday. Maybe it's because my friendships mean the world to me-- clearly they don't to you. It's like your an ex-boyfriend I just cannot let go of. It's like you work hard for something to work, but you're the only one putting in effort and love. We have all had those relationships, including myself, so the fact that our friendship is turning into this saddens me.

If you're having a bad day, it's taken out on me. If that boy never texted you back, it's taken out on me. Instead of properly taking care of the issue you are facing, you throw it at someone else's face. If you're miserable, so are they-- this is not OK.

"That made you sound so stupid, why would you say that?"

I said it because I wanted to. It wasn't stupid to me or anyone else, just to you.

"Why would you even think about doing something like that?"

I did it, because I wanted to. There was nothing wrong with what I did, it just wasn't approved by you first so you aren't OK with it.

"You look fine, shut up, you're annoying me."

I am a girl, of course I am going to ask you if I look alright. You should take this as a compliment that I want your advice to help me.

"Get over it."

No, I cannot get over it. No, I will not get over it. I cannot get over the fact that I am stressed and the one person that I want to talk to about it couldn't care less about my issues. My issues matter. I matter.

To the One's that Make Their Friends Feel Worthless:

If you are this type of friend that is making your friend(s) feel as though they are worthless, stop. Please, stop. One of two things will happen-- you lose them and soon you will lose every single person you come into contact with. Maybe you don't realize that you are doing this to them, but they realize it every single time you make a snarky remark, ignore them, or treat them with disrespect. Your friend(s) aren't your little siblings that you just get to pick on. Sure, some of us are probably more sensitive than you but our feelings do matter. A negative mind and soul will only create more negativity (like the world doesn't already have enough.) Let's take it back to Pre-K-- treat others the way you want to be treated. That was the Golden Rule, right? Use it, abide by it, make it your life motto.

To the Ones Feeling Worthless:

Be there for them while keeping your distance. If you're in my shoes you will constantly get fed up and ask yourself why you're even still friends with this person, but you want to believe that maybe, it'll be a better day or maybe they'll be in a good mood today. Don't give up on your friendship if it means this much to you. Just like a relationship, a friendship takes two especially if it is bound to work. If you are anything like me, friends come before anything and you expect the same in return. Always remember that sometimes people don't have the same heart and intentions as you. Keep being a good person because a good heart takes you farther than a cold one.

To the Ones that May not Understand this Article:

You don't have to because it's my article, it's my personal feelings. I didn't chose to write this to bash on someone who means the world to me. Some of you might think, "why doesn't she just tell her friend all of this instead of writing about it?" I shouldn't have to tell someone that they are making me feel like dirt, they should have morals telling them that what just came out of their mouth wasn't OK. They should have morals telling them that what their actions just did wasn't OK. Treating another human being as though they are nothing is not OK.

I have wonderful, fun-filled days with my friends, but I question whether or not the bad days will eventually outweigh the great ones.

I love you, but it takes less energy to be a good person instead of a mean one and I pray to God for my sake you learn that quickly. Would you be friends with you? Every single person should ask themselves that regularly and while I know I am not a perfect human, student, daughter, or friend, I do know how to treat others. Become a better person for you. For me. For our friendship. For this world.

I will love you always,

Your Not-So Worthless Friend