I still remember being told, "what about me?" Every time I planned to do something different with my life, and I still remember having anxiety when you would point out things that were wrong with us. Every time I believed I was trying, it was not good enough. I have emotional walls that I built because you dug too deep and you basically ruined me.

I do not know how to trust anyone but myself, and at times, I still feel like talking about how I feel to my peers. I believe they have grown tired of hearing the same thing. I am damaged, and it is sad really because we want to depend on our peers for reassurance. But life is still moving on and here I am still lingering on something that occurred so long ago. However, you have continued living without even thinking what you have done to me emotionally.

The last time I spoke to you, you had reverted to your typical speech about how you were dealing with us no longer being together, and had missed the entire purpose of us reconnecting again. I had learned that you have remained the same. The childish mind, your insecurities, your lack of understanding were all prominently evident.

But I should have known better than to try and reconnect with you after all the hurt, stress and instability you caused me. You were nothing but a lost cause from the moment I met you.

I was naive and I thought I could bring out the good in you, and for a while, things were good like most relationships are in the beginning. But frankly, you never had any good to offer, you can only take. Like a black hole when it is sucking in dying stars. You take and always believe you should be given because in your mind, the cards that have been dealt to you are unfair.

The excuses and the lies I told just to make you look good. All for what? To be stressed about what is occurring to you, to be confused about what you are doing with your life, to be constantly on my toes because I can no longer differentiate what is a lie and what is truth.

You were toxic. From the moment I met you, that was all you were and all you could have ever been. Nothing good ever came from you. Yet, I believed I deserved that. I believed I did not deserve anything good from you or from anyone else I would ever meet later on in the future.

To believe that we would last was a fantasy that you built in your mind and I simply agreed to it because all I wanted to do was to make you happy. Regardless, I was unhappy. I gave you multiple chances because you would always claim the same thing: "things are going to be different this time."

It sounds like a foreign statement now, but before I knew it all too well. I had heard this statement one too many times and I allowed it. I take responsibility for what I allowed. However, I will no longer take responsibility for your actions, for all the things you claimed you had not done.

Today, I am stronger. Today, I will appear changed to you because you do not recognize me with strength. Today, I think about myself and about what I desire to do without hearing your voice in the back of my head. Today, I have the ability to no longer tolerate your lies.

I now know that I never needed to make you happy, but rather I needed to make myself happy. But you would never understand that because all you could ever do or say is that "we need each other." Yet, that is the thing, I never needed you. In fact, the only person who needed anyone was you.

To the negative ex that claimed that I will forever be unhappy because I will never find a partner like you were: you were right. I will never find a person so negative, so controlling, so unappreciative like you because I, as a person, have grown. Mentally, spiritually and physically. I have learned to value my time and my energy.

Thus, a person with your characteristics are no longer welcomed. You are now the perfect example of everything I do not want, and it is ironic because at some point, you were everything I wanted. However, I do not regret being with you because life is nothing but a learning experience. I am just grateful that I learned something more about myself.

I learned how far I could go for someone I truly care about. I learned that, everything I gave to you would be happily received by someone who truly deserves it.

When you are checking on Facebook, Instagram, or Twitter to see what I have been up to, allow me to give you a brief summary:

I am fine. No, I do not miss you. My family is great. Yes, you are right, my friends still do not like you. And no, we may not continue to communicate because it is a waste of both of our time. No, I do not care what has happened to you since we stopped communicating. No, I do not want to grab coffee sometime.

To the negative ex, you do not need to know anything positive that is happening.