Welp, here I am, telling the same story again. You left. So clearly I have no luck when it comes to guys. The second I decide to open up and let someone in, this happens.
Heartbreak.
And now, you were just another number.
First of all, you left. So there goes that promise. You promised you’d never hurt me, looks like there’s another one out the window. I just don’t get it –– is it me? Is it my fault for thinking you’d be different? Is it my fault for thinking you could be my soul mate? Maybe... but it seems like you just got scared when things got tough. And you ran.
You broke me.
You made me believe you, made me think that everything was so real and true. You made me believe that I had truly fallen in love and that you had too. It’s almost like you just couldn’t handle how real it all could have been, and you were convinced there was better for you out there, of which failed to include me.
Then it happened so sudden. You just gave up. You decided that it was the day to delete me out of your life and that was that. And you left. And I don’t get it, but I guess I never will.
So here I am, thinking I have to apologize for trying, apologize for loving you with all my heart, and doing everything I can for our relationship to work.
But I’m done apologizing.
No relationship is perfect, and anyone who says there is one is lying. There’s always ups and downs, and arguments and disagreements, but that’s what makes a relationship real. And newsflash, if you truly cared for me like you claimed you did— you’d still be here. You’d be here, trying to work with me on making our relationship work, making an effort, and being present in the relationship. But, you’re not.
I was deleted, removed and forgotten. All in a day.
A day that you decided would be the end of our relationship. A day that you decided you didn’t care anymore and would forget about me altogether.
And honestly, I wish I could say the same. I wish I could just delete you and forget you like you so easily did for me. But I can’t. I loved you more than I ever thought was even humanly possible, and you played with it. You took it for granted.
And I will never be able to forget that pain.
You broke me and wore me down to complete nothingness.
So yeah, some days I wish I could forget you and walk away from you like you so easily did for me. But I guess that’s what makes us such different people. And who knows, maybe that’s why we weren’t meant to be.
But just know, I’ll never forget those broken promises. I’ll never forget the pain you put me through. But I guess I’ll start having to learn how to deal with it, give up, and walk away. Just like you.
