June 28, 2016
You came over today and we had so much fun. We went swimming and ate a ton of pizza. I love the way my dog loves you and you love him, too; it's the cutest thing ever. I can’t wait to watch scary movies later! Stop losing your makeup, I’ve told you it's in the side pocket of your bag; you’d seriously be lost without me, I swear.
July 17, 2016
It’s been awhile since we last talked like best friends... I hope you’re doing well. You’re ignoring my calls... Please answer. I do not know what happened to us or why we are no longer friends, but I wish nothing but success and happiness for your future. I still love you so much, and I’m still here, pinky promise.
August 2, 2016
I saw what you said about me to your friend... Why would you say that about me? I’m so lost for words, what did I do to you?? Please answer me...
August 5, 2016
Today I found out why we are not friends and it breaks my heart to think about me writing this. You didn’t love me anymore, you thought I was nothing but annoying. I was becoming too much for you. I get it you have your life, and you need to live that... But being my friend meant caring for me, too. I loved you so much and took you in as family. You spent basically every week at my house and knew where every little item in my kitchen was. I realize that sometimes I talked about my issues more than yours, but that's because I thought you actually cared for me. You made me believe that you were my best friend, I didn’t think I would have to evaluate every detail of our friendship.
August 8, 2016
My dog keeps looking for you and sitting by the door; he gets confused as to where you went... Why are you not back? He misses you.
August 9, 2016
The sad part is, I would still take you in, just because I miss you so much. I miss the person I could text and say “I’m outside let's get food.” I miss the long car rides we had blasting our favorite song and screaming it so loud it made our faces numb. I miss you yelling at every guy who tried talking to me because you refused to let me get hurt. I miss the way we would stay up until 4 AM watching scary movies and eating some zebra cakes. I miss the way you would boost my self confidence by calling me beautiful and we would argue for an hour over it. I miss the random FaceTime calls just to talk about that guy that broke your heart, and you knew I would comfort you (even though you knew I wanted to say "I told you so"). I miss your laugh and the way your eyes would roll when that person we didn’t like entered the room. Honestly, most of all... I miss you. Even when you were talking bad about me to your other friends, I still wanted you to be my best friend.
August 15, 2016
I saw your Facebook post about me, making fun of my insecurities... Maybe not being friends with you is a good idea? I hope you’re still taking your nightly medication, you need that to get better.
I hope you are getting enough sleep, I know you’ve always had issues with that.
August 19, 2016
I don’t want you around anymore... And I hate it. I told myself for a few months that I would still take you back even after those cruel words and mean posts about me. I finally then had a wake up call; you do not deserve me. You don’t deserve a friend like me because you were never a true friend. A true friend would never make me feel bad for hanging out with my other friends, or even getting upset with me when I forgot to answer one lousy text. A true friend would have never said those words about me to anyone, or even told my secret to all of their friends just to crack a joke. Your secrets are still safe with me, and always will be... I’m sorry we ended this way, years of our friendship are just down the drain.
August 20, 2016
We are no longer friends, but we do talk. Things aren’t the same with us, and you never did apologize for the cruel things you said. I’m acting like everything is okay, but deep inside I want nothing more than to scream in your face and burst into tears. I trusted you, I took care of you, I helped you, I loved you when you couldn’t love yourself... But I guess that just wasn’t enough.
I don’t think we will ever go back to how we were, and for that, I just want to break down.
I shouldn’t be sad, but maybe that's what happens when you have a big heart..
You trust the wrong people. I hope your future is brighter than how it was and you can get through any obstacle that is thrown at you. I hope you learn that talking bad about a friend will not ever make them feel good. I’m sorry we ended this way.
Carry On.
P.s. Your makeup is in the side pocket of your book bag.
Love,
Your Ex Best Friend.
