To the girl who is no longer my best friend,
I used to think that we were going to be those friends where were the best of friends from junior high on to the rest of our lives. I used to think that we were going to be the two old ladies causing trouble in the same nursing home because when we were together there was no stopping us. I used to think that there was no separating us because we were basically attached at the hip. Little did I know that friendship would soon be nonexistent and would instead be nothing but a memory.
I tried to save our friendship. I did everything I thought possible. I constantly asked you to go places with me. I made sure I didn’t go a day without talking to you. After so long, I finally had to come to the realization that maybe things just weren’t like they used to be. People change, people grow apart. Although neither of us wanted to admit it, we both know that we just weren’t the same people when our friendship ended as we were when it started years before.
Things happened, life happened. Our friendship ended for reasons known, but also some unknown by both of us. The thing about losing a friend who you thought was going to be there forever is that no matter what they do, and no matter how much you guys should probably hate each other, you can’t. I can never hate you. In fact, I will always love you and you will always have a place in my heart. We were friends for too long to just erase the memories we had. It’s hard not to think about where you are in life or what are you doing when my Facebook memories constantly feel the need to show me our “awkward stage” photos that we constantly took. It’s hard not to wonder what boy you are talking to or what the guy you are dating is like. There are so many times when something happens that I feel like I should text you but I don’t because it’s been 6 months, or even a year, since we talked last.
So, our friendship didn’t go as planned. We will not be each other’s maid of honor in our weddings, we will probably only see pictures of each other’s future kids on Facebook or Instagram. But just because things didn’t go as planned doesn’t mean neither of us tried.
To the girl who is my best friend no more, I didn’t forget about you, nor do I hate you. I wish you nothing but the best in life. If ever our path may cross again, I hope we can make amends. If we’re being honest, I miss you.
Sincerely,
The girl who used to be your best friend
