First off, I want to say thank you. Thank you so much for not only dealing with my issues, but constantly dealing with your own issues as well.
In no means am I an easy person with a simple stress-free life. In fact, I’m quite the opposite of that. I have my bursts of happiness and my burst of anxiety attacks. Not only do you deal with my random anxiety attacks, but you always deal with my everyday depression. You guys have learned that sometimes I don’t always have a reason to be sad, it just naturally happens for me. You guys are always able to detect when my mood changes, even when I'm faking it. I can go from my fake laugh and smile to crying in 10 seconds and you’re always there to be there for both moods.
I know I don’t really open up with my emotions, but you never force me to; you always know that the time will come. You stay on the phone with me, even if it is 2 AM and I'm crying about that boy who left me broken hearted from five years ago. Thank you for dealing with me as I'm silent and can't think of words to say because my mind was too busy wondering of negative thoughts. You never tell me I have no reason to be depressed and to just knock it off. You understand that I can’t really control my thoughts most of the time.
You never question why I randomly stop talking when we are having a group conversation... You already know why. I’m not saying I will always be okay, and I won't always be depressed, but you choose to stay through every emotion I have. And for that, I thank you. I can never thank you enough for staying with me as I try to figure out why I always feel this way.
Thank you for not getting annoyed when I ask you every day if you still love me and want me around. Thank you for reminding me as much as you can that you are grateful I am still on this earth; you will never know how much that helps me feel better. From the nights of me screaming to myself that I couldn’t take being alive anymore, to the nights of random car rides singing music at the top of our lungs, I love you. I know I may not say it a lot, but I am just so grateful to have friends as true as you. I know I can’t express my feelings a lot, my mind always tells me no one cares about me, and for that, I am sorry. I am sorry that you have to deal with my everyday struggle to find true happiness. I am sorry that sometimes I ignore you just because I can barely breathe from crying so much. I know you guys care for me, and I know you guys worry about me. But just remember, with friends like you, I will always be okay.
Thank you for everything.
Love,
The Girl Who Thanks You
