It was over the course of a few days almost to the day. I watched you fight, yell, and disgrace the word family just like you always found ways to. Going at each other like a pack of wolves in the middle of the street, hospital, cemetery making sure there was an audience around. My only thought was at least these times were without police intervention. As I watched these events unfold I realized this was the breaking point. I was done.

I was done watching you try to use us for your own personal agenda. I was done listening to the lies that you enjoyed peddling around regardless of the affect it had on others. I was done watching you try to control others by pitting them against each other like pawns. I was done with watching you create chaos and mayhem among the family then blame everyone else so you could play the victim. Since you play the role well.

That's not a family or what a family does to one another. You can only endure certain situations before you outgrow them or before they break you. I can't be around people who do nothing to help themselves. I can't watch social media wars being waged over petty vendettas. I don't want to be apart of that. I don't need that kind of toxicity in my life. I choose not to be a product of my environment.

At some point I needed to do what was best for me and my well being. Some may disagree with me or say I've done the wrong thing and that's their prerogative. Currently, I have family that has proven through action that they will do anything for me, protect me with everything they have, who love me unconditionally and I get to reciprocate that back. Whether they are blood or not, the family I choose to surround myself with are a dynamic, exceptional group of people. Being family to me is determined more by behavior than blood.

I'm sure there will be retribution for me speaking my piece. I'm positive I will receive backlash for providing the answers you've wanted. I know there will be prayers said for me for turning my back on my family. How do I know this? Because it's what I've come to expect. Please know that I will not engage in your tactics. I accept who you are and I'm not asking you to change.

I've forgiven you long ago for the pain you've caused. I'm sorry that I don't allow you to be apart of my life. But I've seen firsthand what staying in that place can do to a person and I don't want to become that. I still love and care about you. I wish you the best. I hope one day you find peace with my decision.