Dear Bully,

Please know I do not hate you for your behavior towards me, in fact, I thank you, I thank you for teaching me and making me much stronger. However, I would like to inform you, your cruel and hateful behavior towards me over the years often had me considering taking my own life, just because I thought that would make you happy. You would reduce me to the point of tears numerous times, but because at the time, I cared about you about you a great deal; I continued to put up with it for as long as I could before "giving up" on you. I never wanted to "give up" on you, but the circumstances being what they were, I felt like I had no choice, I had to what was best for me, because my life was at stake.

In the beginning, I never once saw you as a bully, but when your life started going downhill, I feel as if you have some immense built up anger towards some past issues, so you decided to take these feelings out on me, which made me feel lousier than I already did, due to my self-esteem issues. I felt a sense of worthlessness, hopelessness, being unappreciated, and so many more negative feelings I cannot even begin to describe. The behavior you exhibited can be forgiven, but never, ever forgotten. I had been through the wringer way before I even met you, but after coming into contact with you again, my life began to spiral out of control. All I wanted to curl up in a ball a cry, I never thought about killing myself or harming myself in any way until we starting having our issues.

Once you started treating me like trash, the idea of taking my own life seemed like the best thing in the world with each day that passed. You would always apologize for your cruel and hateful behavior, and you'd promise to never do it again. But of course, anytime something went wrong in your life, I was always the one who got the worse end out of it because of your behavior towards me- it was quite frankly unacceptable.

Because of all the heartache you put me through, I'll never be able to look at you the same way again.

Sometimes, I honestly wish I'd taken my own life, especially when you told me to about 3 years ago; just to get away from you. Sadly, I've thought about it numerous times, and yes, I wanted to succeed more times than I can count. I prayed to God every night to make me go to sleep, and not wake up. At that point I was desperate to do everything I could just to get away from you; thankfully, because of you, I've learned how strong I really am and I was able to continue to fight and keep myself alive.

I pray for you every single day, I pray that you and people like you will find kindness in their hearts and realize sometimes certain actions have grave consequences. Imagine if I had successfully killed myself because of you, how would you feel? I'm counting down the days until you're hit with the slap in the face known as karma.

Thank you for making me stronger,

The person you thought you could tear down.