Dear Bane of My Existence,
Long time no talk, which is really a blessing if I'm going to be honest. I have a few things to say to you before I cut you out of my life completely and you are going to listen for once in your life.
You're a damn good liar, you know that right? When we first started talking you convinced me you were a very different person than who you actually are. We used to stay up until four am every night texting back and forth just talking about anything we could to keep the conversation going. I remember when you used to tell me that you thought I was pretty, even though you'll deny it to your last dying breath. You made me feel so good about myself two summers ago but after that you brought me down to my lowest.
Any time I would bring up hanging out after the summer ended, you would blow me off. In the beginning I chalked it up to our differing schedules, but then I realized you weren't interested anymore. Actually you were interested in our mutual friend. Our FRESHMAN mutual friend when you were a SENIOR. What a blow to my ego. You liked a child better than me. Yeah, yeah I know you would say she was an adult but she was still a child. It hurt when I had to find out from her that you were done with me. I guess the funny part about it was that she wasn't interested in you like that at all.
I stopped speaking to you for months and then you tried to worm your way back into my life. I let it happen because I was upset with my life at the moment and you were a great verbal punching bag. I could say whatever I wanted to you and you would take it. You always wanted me more when I was cruel to you. Just when I thought you had maybe changed I found out you were still hitting up the freshman and again I said bye to you because I don't play these games.
The holidays came and went and you appeared again but much different. I genuinely thought we were going to go somewhere, even as just friends. There was no more lies, I knew who you were and I could start to form a relationship on some level with you because I knew what I was getting into. Then you pushed me away. You tried to hurt me to make me leave and I thought I could fix you. Do you know how many nights I cried myself to sleep because I wanted to fix you? You probably wouldn't care anyways, but it was far too many. I couldn't fix you, so I had to let you go. I can't take all the emotional damage you inflict on me. You brought down my happiness way too long.
Knowing you, you probably want to know why would I write this if I'm done with you. I'm writing it because I want to get it all out in the open so I can move on completely. I've finally found someone who brings me up and makes me feel so good about myself. I don't need you anymore. I won't ever need you again. I think I could have loved you, but I got out before I did. So goodbye and good luck with your life. You have a lot going for you and I wish you all the happiness in the world.
Love,
The Bane of Your Existence
