First of all, I want you to know that I'm not mad that you left, even though I know what you said. I realize that you promised me that we would be best friends forever or that you'd always be there for me or whatever, but I also know that sometimes, life has other plans. I am mindful of the fact that you can't control how you feel. So just know that I'm not mad and that I understand.

But I also want you to know how much it hurt when you left. Not because I want you to feel bad, or because I want you to pity me, but because I want you to know that I took to heart everything that you said to me, even if you weren't sure that you could deliver on your promises when you made them. I believed that what you were telling me was what you actually felt, and now I'm questioning if that was ever true.

So tell me, did you ever mean the things that you told me? Was I as important to you as you were to me, or was I just believing the lies you were feeding me? Do I even want to know the answers?

Whatever it may be, though, the past is in the past. I want you to realize that I was hurt at the time, but I have moved on. You have taught me that good things come and go faster than I ever thought possible. You have allowed me to be thankful for what I have because I know that nothing lasts forever, even though you promised that what we had would.

And I understand now that it was a good thing that you left. While it hurt immensely at the time, I found a strength inside me that I would have never otherwise known about. I am my own person, and I have learned to only put my love and trust where it belongs. I know what I deserve in friendships and relationships because you were unable to give them to me, and I am so thankful for those heart-wrenching lessons.

And lastly, I want you to know that no matter what, I'm still rooting for you. Despite the pain you caused me, I'm not mad, and I want you to be happy, with or without me there to enjoy it with you. I hope you find exactly what you're looking for, and I hope you never feel like you are alone. Because even though you aren't in my life anymore, I'm always here if you need me.