To my friend who is a soon to be mother,
A picture of us popped on my Facebook memories yesterday. It was a picture of us when we went black Friday shopping. Neither one of us thought a year later you would be pregnant and we would barely talk.
You are pregnant. Who would have ever guessed? I still cant fully comprehend it. Can you? We don't talk as much as we use to but I still think about you. I still pray for you. I pray for your soon to be daughter.
You've made mistakes. As well as I have. But I just need to say that your baby girl will never be a mistake. Not to you, not to me, not to anyone who loves her. She already has so many people who care about her, its crazy.
I pray for you because I know you have to be scared. You don't know what you're going to do or how you'll do it. Being a mother is a huge responsibility and it's scary. It's scary to a 17 year old and it's scary to a 27 year old. It's going to be a challenge. But I know you and I know that you can do it. You can do anything you put your mind too.
I pray for your daughter. I pray that I'll be able to be apart of her life like I was apart of yours. I pray that she has her mothers eye's and heart. I pray that she gets everything she wants and that she'll be nothing short of the happiest baby ever. I know she will be as beautiful and caring as you are. I know she will be loved and appreciated. I pray that I'll be able to be her "aunt C". I pray that she'll look up to me the way I looked up to you. I pray that she has a best friend like I had. I pray that she'll know the meaning of being honest and caring. I pray that she doesn't let people run her over. I pray that when she can't defend herself that she'll have a best friend to defend her like I did.
I pray that when she gets in high school she wont be like us and steady worry about what people think. I pray that she goes to prom and has fun. I pray she stay's level headed and doesn't get into to much trouble. I pray that she'll call me to talk you into stuff. I pray that I'll be at every birthday party. I pray that I'll be at her wedding. I pray she's a hard worker. I pray she doesn't let a dumb guy determined how much she is worth.
The timing wasn't all right. I don't think anyone really plans to have a kid at the age 17 but I also don't think there is really a 'perfect' time to have kids. You just got to have them and do everything you can to keep them safe and happy.
I know you'll be great at this and I cant wait to see what you will achieve in the process and I cant wait to spend time with your precious bundle of joy.
You're probably wondering what kind of mother you're going to be. I want to reassure you that you'll be the best mom there is. She's going to love you through your mistakes and all. She is going to be your best friend. You know, kind of like our moms?
I want you to know that even though you and I aren't in the place we once were. If I'm physically able to. I WILL be at that hospital when you are in labor. I will be impatiently pacing down the halls. Asking, "Can I go in yet?" over and over.
I want you to know that no matter how you do it, I’ll be proud of you. If you have an epidural. If you don’t. If your baby sleeps well. If it doesn’t. If you never complain about being exhausted. If you complain every single day. If you implement a routine. If you take each day as it comes and fly by the seat of your pants. I’ll be proud of you no matter how you do it, no matter how well you cope, no matter how many times you feel like you’re failing. Because you won’t fail. Not in any way. And I’ll be proud.
You're baby girls "aunt C" and your friend.