Someone once told me that in order to live, one must die first. Obviously, I was not paying attention to the sentence, nor was I understanding the true meaning of the phrase. I was blinded by sadness and desperation at the moment, but it stayed with me. Probably because I didn't understand what it meant at the time and therefore I was intrigued by it. Maybe I saved it in my memory in order to be able to figure it out some day. Today, after a few years and some falls, I understand what the phrase means.

We all learn from our mistakes and from the consequences of our actions. Committing a mistake is always tough and feels like a negative thing, but then there is the greatness of learning and personal growth which will always be a good and positive thing. From pain and sorrow emerges surprise and calmness. Primary emotions that by being so different they complement each other beautifully. There is no contradiction in pain and happiness, in grief and peace because they interlace naturally.

Feeling pain and sorrow will never be an entertainment. We all know that, because we have felt it, but one true thing I've realized is those feelings will transform your life from its roots. All the painful and unpleasant feelings will tune your sensitivity and will make you more discerning for your own good. Therefore, something that causes some sorrow or grief is not necessarily something harmful.

Tears, insomnia and desperation full of uncertainty, fear and some sort of mystery transforms into virtues. A weird kind of gift that life provides are things that pretend to be something, but end up being something completely different. A subtle transformation of the apparent opposing emotions of sorrow and happiness makes us stronger for our own good.

The small things, the warmness, the prudence, nor the mediocre will ever fill your soul completely. We need to feel in order to grow and be be complete. It will never be about becoming a martyr though, it is about accepting what is giving to you for personal growth. It is not about putting your head down, but knowing that things like pain and deception never come in vain. Don´t be indifferent to pain, sorrow or any relatives because just as someone once told me, ¨You need to die, in order to be reborn¨.