There is a lot to be said about someone who is carefree because so many people like to make a habit out of putting pressure on their own fate. I believe that many of us, myself included, don't like to face the reality of our lives as much as we should. We either think we deserve everything or nothing. We suppress the bad and don't accept the good. This poem is a response to that fact.

This Is How We Deceive Ourselves

We love to lie to ourselves

To pretend that mistakes don’t happen

To say that responsibility is a suggestion

That failure is obsolete

We procrastinate,

Tricked by the impossibility of having more time

Fooled by the allusion of future productivity

We tell ourselves we're made to selflessly help others

To listen, to understand, to comfort

And yet we throw away their pain in exchange for our own

This is when we become resentful

Of each other and ourselves

Deception is the inability to accept the truth

We use metaphors to mask our feelings when emotions are too raw

This is when we say exposure is damning

That continuous fear is the only thing that will keep you safe

This is when irrationality becomes toxic

Next we refuse to consider our blessings

Refuse to entertain the thought that things will get better

We convince ourselves that no one will listen

So we refuse to ask for help

Refuse to dream

Refuse to have faith.

Now we are left to boil in what remains

Irresponsibility and denial

Fear and hopelessness

Unbelief

This is how we deceive ourselves