Anxiety is something that is hard to explain or put into words. It's something that can be controlling and life changing. It has to be one of the biggest struggles that has been thrown into my life. Anxiety sucks to be honest and I wouldn't wish it upon anyone. So below I have listed out just a few of the many things us with anxiety have to deal with.
1. We are always ANXIOUS.
Okay so you might be thinking, "Well duh, isn't that what anxiety means?" What I mean is the smallest of things will trigger us. I have even found myself at times wondering why I have a weird feeling in the pit of my stomach and have absolutely no clue why. Always bouncing our leg, always twiddling our fingers, always anxious for something to happen.
2. We need REASSURANCE.
The amount of times I have asked, "So are we still doing this?" is insane. We are constantly worried that plans will fall through or that someone doesn't like us anymore. I will ask over and over again questions until I get a for sure answer or until I believe it.
3. We are PARANOID.
Not getting that text back within five minutes? You may have created a scenario in your head where out of the blue they've decided they hate you and never talk to you again. Sometimes even seeing a subtweet from one of your best friends and all of the sudden a million things run through your head thinking it's you but in all reality, you did nothing wrong.
4. Sometimes we randomly cry.
Sometimes I will just sit down and get a gut wrenching feeling deep in my stomach. I can't even describe the feeling, but those of you who have had it know exactly what I am talking about. It makes you want to cry and curl up
5. And sometimes we have to back out of plans.
It was always hard for me to stick to plans when I was younger due to my anxiety. You think about the "what if's" a lot and get scared of the silliest of things. I missed out on some opportunities that I will never get back. I missed the memories made at the sleepovers that I passed up. I thought I may grow out of this but it still happens to me today while I am in college. It isn't always something you grow out of.
So keep on living, and don't let anxiety stop you from doing anything you want to do. It's just a little voice in your head that only you can control. Ignore it and live your life. It's your life, not your anxiety's.
