Lately, I have been struggling with my self worth. But I have learned this one harsh truth recently. It has helped me get over my own fears of being the best.
There will always be someone better. This sounds like a harsh thing to tell myself, and it may even be harmful to me if i don't use it correctly. I do not mean this in the way that, if there is always someone better then what is the use of trying? No this does not mean all of my hard work is pointless, or unnecessary. This does not show me that I will never be good enough.
What this tells me is that there is no use worrying if you're the best. Because there will always be someone better, I shouldn't be spending my time being the best. I shouldn't worry about how good I can be in comparison to other people. I shouldn't hold myself to the standards of that better person. If I do these things, I will always be disappointed because there will always be someone better.
Instead of focusing on how much better than everyone I can be, I should be focusing on how good I can get. I shouldn't be worrying about being better than someone. I should be worrying about if I'm good enough for myself. When I look in the mirror, do I see greatness? Yes I do, even if others don't. I see myself as great for where I am, even if there are others out there who are better than me. There will always be someone who is better than me, so why should I worry about being the best?
I have so many people in my life who are great, and many of them are greater than I am. I see articles that have thousands of shares, when my articles only get a few. But this doesn't bother me. These articles were written by people who have more experience than me, who work harder than I do, who have more resources, etc. There are a million reason as to why I am not the best, and I know that one day I will get where they are, or I won't. It all depends on where I feel I want to be.
I am not driven by competition, and am not put down by it. This is perfectly fine to me, because I know that no matter how much I do, there will always be someone better than me. No matter how much I work, or bleed, or cry about it, I will never be the best at everything. So why worry so much about being the best? Why not worry about being the best for yourself?
I am good enough for me.
