Now that you’re gone, I feel lost. I haven’t been able to talk about you since you passed away. I still sit here and cry when I think about you. I know that you are in a better place and that you aren’t suffering anymore, but I wasn’t ready for you to leave. You were the only person I could talk to about everything and anything. Now that you are gone, I just pray and hope that you can hear me. I know you are happier now and feel more alive than you ever have before. I just miss you.
You helped raise my brother and I. Since our parents would work all the time, you would care for us. You entertained me when I was bored and taught me so many things. You taught me how to crochet and would make blankets together. You would love it when I did the dishes with you because I was your little helper and loved to dry them off. You taught me how to play cards and always thought I cheated because I beat you even though I think you let me win. You taught me how to cook and would always make desserts together. You loved seeing me get excited about baking something with you and usually let me do all the work. You taught me how to be kind, caring and compassionate even though I could be a brat.
The truth is, you are the most caring and loving person I have ever known. You would put others before yourself and was always thinking of them. You would constantly check up on people to see how they were doing. You had a book of people to contact and made sure all of them received a Christmas card. You were God’s angel on earth.
You took care of me, my brother, my Dad, and my grandpa. You were by my grandpa’s side even though he had lost his leg in the war. I don’t know very many women who can say the same. I also don’t know very many women who would even stay with a man with one leg, but you did. You saw something special and powerful in him. You loved him more than anyone could ever love a man. You also loved having a granddaughter.
I remember hearing stories about how everyone thought I was going to be a boy because there wasn’t any blood born females on that side of our family. You had hope and you prayed to have a granddaughter that would do things with you. You were so surprised and happy that I was a girl. You acted like I was your daughter and that you would protect me and teach me so many things. Grandma, you taught me so much and I was still learning from you.
Even when you got diagnosed with Alzheimer and congestive heart failure, I was still learning from you. You still had a big heart and that beautiful smile on your face every time I saw you. You loved seeing me at the nursing home taking care of you and others. You always told me that I would be a great nurse and had the heart for it. I got my heart and love from you. I will never forget the things you taught me, your smile, your smell, or even your laugh. I can’t wait to see you again, but I know you’re now my angel watching over me.
I love you grandma….
