My endeavors at making friends has substantially improved since when I was younger. Growing up, I never really had many friends, due to the fact that I was a bit of an outcast with my abnormal face and unconventional character. Now it’s safe to say that I have a good amount of friends. While some things in life made a few friends drift apart due to drama or lack of communication, there are still some friends who stayed close to me, going as far back as middle school. But now I’ve come to realize something.
Friendship.
It’s a word that means a mutual respect, trust and support between two people. A close bond.
Meaning that the effort and dedication is a two-way street.
No one enjoys being in a one-sided or toxic friendship. Myself included. I’m not one to give up on someone easily, if they’re really important to me, but giving your heart and soul out so much to someone and never having anything reciprocated, not even a thank you, it hurts. I mean, just because you may have too many friends to count, it doesn’t mean you can’t at least try to spread equal love and support and friendship. In one-sided friendships people usually get less than what they give out.
I’m sick of it.
If you feel like there’s no strong and meaningful friendship chemistry, just tell the person. It’s that simple. If you want to be friends, then get up and do something about it. It’s one or the other. There’s no having it both ways. Eventually, the friend is going to assume you don’t care, and they’re going to probably give up on you. And it hurts. It hurts to be in a one-sided friendship but it hurts just as much to have to let go of a strong friendship you once thought would last for a long time.
I’m a naturally giving person. I guess it’s because the life I had giving me a bit more humanity and growth than usual. I love doing nice things for my friends because I care about them and I don’t want to see them hurt. I love supporting my friends and giving them the love and comfort they need. But not all of them come back for me.
Don’t make promises you can’t keep. Don’t say you’ll make time for a friend when you clearly don’t mean it and are too busy preferring the company of your other friends. Don’t just sit there and have your friend do all the effort in the friendship and not do anything back in return. Don’t make your friendship a one-way street.
I’m sick of one-sided friendships. I’m sick of caring about people who don’t seem to give two cents about me. It’s time I surround myself with people who want to share with me, who make me feel loved and whole and important.
It’s time to stick to my guns.
