The Singleness.

First I need to make it clear that being single is okay. I feel like there is such a negative connotation wrapped around this word single. In reality the singleness is a beautiful season to be in.

I used to be the person that couldn’t be alone, I needed to be loved, or at least approved of in someone, anyone’s eyes.

Then one day this summer the Lord spoke something so loudly in my spirit that I could not ignore it,

“Why is My love not enough for you?”

Me searching for love in the wrong places was me telling Jesus that His crucifixion was not enough.

The moment I was convicted I knew I needed to make a change if I was going to become the person God has called me to be.

I made a change that was not an easy one and I was alone.

I was in a place I had never been and I was absolutely terrified.

Sometimes healing hurts and that it did.

But enough about the hard part that is long over, I need to tell you how faithful God is and how He took a broken heart and turned it into a beautiful vessel overflowing with joy.

I remember praying in my car one night and I told the Lord this,

“Listen I am alone, like You asked but I refuse to be lonely, You have got to be here with me every step of the way.”

…and that He has.

I have never heard His voice so loud and clear. I have been running with all I have towards Him and one day if a man of God decides he can keep up and the Lord gives the go ahead I’ll have a partner in life and in ministry. Until that day, I will continue to know the Lord in a very personal way as an individual.

Single does not mean available, my heart belongs to the One who created it, the One who put it back together when it was mistreated, and the One who held it when I tried to place it in the hands of those who were not going to care for it.

In the singleness I have found myself.

I have never felt so whole.

I have never loved myself more.

I finally see what He sees.

I have not felt lonely because there is never a moment I am without Him.

So if you are in a season of singleness as well, please hear my heart.

You do not need to be lonely.

This is a place of growth.

This is a place of unconditional love.

The Lord’s timing is perfect.

Let His love be enough.

Let the cross be enough.

No man will die for you the way Jesus did.

Find your worth in Him, I promise you will never experience a greater love.

Before you can be anyone else’s you must first be His.