We've all done it at one time or the other.

"Ugh, I wish I didn't say that during my interview if I just worded it differently I wouldn't have ruined my chances at getting this job...I always ruin my chances with everything and now I'll never find a job."

Only thing is, you end up getting the job, and all the overthinking was completely uncalled for.

Most of our overthinking comes with relationships, however. We all have had something happen to us in the past to change us for the worst, not the better. It's that change that makes it impossible for us to function like we wish we could.

They hurt us so bad, and now we're forever worried and waiting for it to happen again like it always does.

We meet a person, and we expect that maybe this time it's going to be different. We won't have to worry like we have before.

It starts off wonderfully, they're fully invested in getting to know you and you never have to worry about them leaving you on read or giving you one-word responses. Time goes by, and suddenly it starts again like it always does, and you blame yourself. Did I say something wrong? Am I boring them and are they talking to someone else because of it? We look at every little thing we've said and start watching what we say, because we want to appear normal and not say something that could be misinterpreted whatsoever. Of course, we try and figure out what every little word they say could possibly mean.

People from our past drift, and then drop us like we never meant a thing to them. The excuses they make are pathetic and we know it, but we accept it anyway. They make us feel like we aren't good enough, and we wish we did more to keep this from happening, when in reality it was meant to be.

When we overthink we tear ourselves apart, and its not just mental, it's physical too. Our minds are stabbed by cruel thoughts of things that don't exist, and our body has to absorb these blows. Our heart aches, sending waves of intense sadness and fear throughout our bodies. Our levels of anxiety are so elevated we don't know what to do or how to control it.

We wish we could just talk to them about what's going on through our head, but we don't want to scare them away, we want them to think everything is perfect, so they don't begin the stages of leaving. They don't understand why we think like this, and they never will until they go through the same hurt we did.

Trust is hard to gain when it's betrayed and lost. Don't try and come back to us after putting us through a hell you'll never know of. We're trapped in this mindset and it's hard to go back to a place where our minds are free from negative thoughts. I can't remember what it's like to trust someone, and not worry about every possible thing that can go wrong.

We don't have to go through it alone, that's what friends are for. They sit with you and let you rattle off your thoughts, as crazy as they may sound, and help you channel your energy from negative to positive. Without them, you don't know how you'd get through some of those long, sorrowful nights at 2 am.

One day, we'll find our person who will forever prove to us that we're what they need, not just want, and never let us fall victim to the thoughts that preyed upon us until we met them.

For now, we hope our nights get easier, and thoughts be more gentle.