On any given day I can promise you I have sent at least one new text to my mom or one of my best friends telling them I have a new disease. On any given day if anything seems a little bit abnormal I am on Google typing in my symptoms and self diagnosing (WebMD will be the actual death of me). I drive myself crazy on any given day about my health and what I think I am about to die from.

I feel as though some people might think I am looking for attention when this occurs but honestly I am just over crazy about my health. I have to have my mom remind me on a regular basis I do not have colon cancer, a brain tumor, or am dying of some rare disease. My doctor has told me a million times I need to stay off Google and if I am truly worried about my health then to come in and see him.

Some people may feel this craziness every so often but for me it is a daily thing. The other day I had a huge headache and pain behind my eyes. I was convinced I was going blind and I texted my mom saying I needed to go to the eye doctor and she needed to teach me braille. Once I was settled down she had informed me that in fact I just had a migraine and if I took some medicine it would go away. Yet, I was still not convinced that I wasn't going to blind. I took the medicine she told me to take though because I knew in the back of my head that my mom was probably right. Of course, not before praying that I wouldn't go blind. Within an hours time my head was feeling better and the pain behind my eye had left.

This is one of my irrational fears I deal with. That was a minor case honestly. Half of the time I work myself up and trick myself into feeling a pain in my back or stomach and that causes me to freak out.

If there is one thing I could change it would be my anxious mind about my health.

I know it is irrational to feel that every time I have a headache with a mixture of tiredness to assume I have a brain tumor but for some reason at that moment nothing will convince me I will be alright.

The life of a hypochondriac is one that many experience sometimes however for those of us that experience it on a daily basis we know how hard it really is. If it wasn't for my mom there to reassure me on the daily that there is nothing seriously wrong with me then I would have probably been going to the doctor everyday for every little thing.

As the years go by I try to rationalize my irrational health fear and slowly but surely I can let some things go.

Until the day I can let everything go though, shout out to my mom and friends who will have to continue to listen to me say I have a new disease everyday.