This one’s for all you girls who were stupid enough to chase a guy who wasn’t chasing you back.
Trust me, you aren’t alone girly. We’ve all fallen hard for that one person, who probably acted like they fell for us too at one point! Guys have this evil way of keeping us girls around just with the things they say.
It’s like you (the guy who wouldn’t commit) were just so interested in me, then we hang out and afterwards you aren’t interested at all…for a few weeks at least. Then you get lonely and act like you are dying to see me, shocker right? And then it goes around and around and around again, doing the same exact thing. You don’t want to settle, but the world will end before you come out and say that. I’m not trying to be single for the rest of my life, and I feel like you are. So why do we girls put up with it?
It has taken me a lot of growing up to do to be realistic with myself about you. I can’t lie, you’re a great guy, and I have spent probably too much of my time missing you. But you’re only a great guy when it comes to yourself and your friends. I want someone who gives a dang, someone that is all about me most of the time. Is that too much to ask for in a guy? This back and forth stuff is so wishy washy. Although I can’t sit here and tell myself that the “just hanging out every now and then and texting” or “just kind of a thing,” thing we had going on was terrible, because it wasn’t. I still got the thought of maybe having just a little bit of you to myself, and I was stupid enough to cling to that. I just strive for more.
It’s kind of sickening to think about how caught up in fantasizing over the thought of “us” and being a part of your family I have been for so long now. When in reality, my life has been nothing but stuck on pause with you. After turning down so many good guys because of you, I guess I thought “waiting around” would work. Honestly I was turning them down for absolutely no reason at all!
As many times as I’ve tried, I’ll never dislike you. But I’ll never be able to be your friend either. My generation is so screwed up. Honestly it has taught me that sometimes time means nothing, and character means everything.
