You look in the mirror and you don't understand what other girls have that you don't. You are beautiful, intelligent, and kind. Your sense of humor is a perfect mixture of witty and goofy. You love your family and your loyalty is fierce. You worked your ass off and you have a wonderful career that allows you to be independent and comfortable. But despite all of these things, you still feel that pain in your heart every night when you go to bed alone.
You are not alone. I see you for who you are and I know how much you deserve to be happy. You deserve the world, pretty girl. And you shouldn't settle for any less. It may take you a little longer to be sure about the right guy.
But with age comes wisdom. One thing should be absolutely clear, and that is that you deserve better than him. You are afraid that if you don't take advantage of this boy who shows interest now, that no one else ever will. But I am here to show you why you are wrong.
He tells you that he really likes you and that he will do anything to make you happy. In fact, he says all of the right things.He makes you smile with hopeful promise. Finally, someone to make your big bed feel warm. You make plans and the first few times go well. He makes your heart flutter and your knees weak.
But he comes on a little too strong and you have to stop him from pushing you too far. He says its okay, but the following days are different than before. You continue to try to make plans, but his responses come a little slower each time.
After a while, his messages no longer make you feel excited or happy You cringe a little every time you see his name on your screen. You want to make things work because you so badly want the things he promised you to come true.
But when it comes down to it, he leaves you crying home alone time after time, canceling plans at the last minute. He doesn't consider your feelings or respect your opinions. He guilt trips you and yells at you. Using expletives and ultimatums to try and get into your pants. Suddenly you aren't smart, or sweet, or a hell of a catch You are "stupid," or "overthinking," or "fucking dumb," and finally, a "waste of time."
And before you know it, you find yourself apologizing to him Saying things like, "Please don't be mad at me" and "I didn't mean to hurt your feelings."
You don't see whats happening to you, but I do. He is chipping away at your self-esteem and the light behind your smile is dimming a little more each day. Please don't let him take away your sparkle, pretty girl. You are worth so much more than guilt trips and scraps of affection. You deserve more than that. You deserve the whole damn world. Don't settle for anything less than that.
