When I stop and think about what people I fit in with, what mold I fit, or what my active role in my life is, I start feeling incredibly alone. I find it necessary to take a step away from my life in order to view it clearly. I don't think there will ever be a box that I snugly fit into or a stereotype that I can accurately portray. There isn't a mold I can slip into like a second skin and wear as a protective covering. There are people who reflect parts of yourself; there's something about them that reminders you so much of yourself. You find a certain comfort in spending time with them, but then they say or do something that is a total shift from who you are as a person.
This is good, this is healthy. If everyone were the same, life would be boring. Right? It's truly amazing to know that you are the only version of you on the entire planet. You are a completely unique human being with your own personality, beliefs, and desires. However, this uniqueness comes with the knowledge that not a single human being can ever truly relate to you. People can sympathize with you. They can empathize with you but at the end of the day, they can't understand what you are experiencing. They can try, but they can't actually walk a mile in your shoes. They will never be able to take a look inside your head and be able to understand what makes you tick.
I've had friends for years who still don't fully understand how my anxiety disorder affects every aspect of my life. They will never be able to because no human can fully, completely, and total know another human. This can be very sad but as a Christian, I find that I am known. I am known by God, the creator of the universe. He understands me better than I will ever understand myself. Whenever I feel like I no one can relate to me, or I am feeling completely alone because of my anxiety. He gives me peace that He will never leave me nor forsake me. He knows me to the deepest corners of my soul; I take such comfort in this. I spent such a long time feeling like no one could relate to me but now Jesus is showing me that because of Him I am fully and truly known.
Disclaimer: These are my own personal beliefs, ideas, feelings, and experiences.
