We all have him, the first boy we really loved and unless you're lucky, he was also the first boy to teach us what a true heartbreak feels like. You break up and you cry for a little bit but then you decide it is time to move on. You tell everyone you are ready and are completely over him because you feel like you are. But, if your friends are anything like mine, their response goes a little bit like this: "Yeah but you still talk about him" or, "Are you sure you don't still miss him a little?"
As I kept hearing these things I decided to think about it a little bit. Am I really over him? Do I still think and talk about him? Do I miss him? Well, girls here is the conclusion that I came to...Yes! To all of the above! But then I asked myself, "So does that mean I made a mistake and need to try to get him back?" The answer to this question was, "NO! Absolutely not!" There are reasons that we feel all of these emotions but it doesn't mean that we didn't make the right decision by walking away from the relationship.
This boy is all that we have to really compare anything to. He was our first love, the first guy that made us feel like a princess, and the one who ultimately made us a little nervous to jump right into something new. We miss him because for however long we were in the relationship he not only was our boyfriend but our best friend. When you lose both of those things in one day it's pretty difficult. Believing you will find a better relationship and a truer friend in the future will make all the pain worth it.
We have always been told that the first person you love will hold a special place in your heart and after thinking about all of this, I realize now that they were right. No matter if you ended on good terms or completely hate this boy, he taught you something no one else in this world has. He taught you how to be selfless in a relationship, how to put someone's happiness above your own, and how to work as a team with someone on a day to day basis. Those are lessons that you will take into every relationship from here on out.
Until we find someone else to sweep us off of our feet we are going to think about the feeling that went through our body when he would kiss us on our forehead or the butterflies we would get when his name would pop up on our phone. Just because we think about these things does not mean that we are not ready to move on, it means we are humans and we are not willing to settle for the next thing that comes along, but we are also human enough to miss the feeling of having someone who cares about us the way that he did.
He is going to always be in the back of your head as someone who will always have a little piece of your heart and someone you will always miss just a tiny bit. However, it is okay! So you aren't going to spend forever with the first boy you loved, honestly, most people don't. Don't hate him because he hurt you, show him that he, without a doubt, let go of someone truly amazing. God made you with a very special man in mind and one day you will meet your real Prince Charming and he will show you exactly why this boy was just a stop along the way to your happily every after!
