First off, thank you…This may seem rather an odd thing to say, but from the deepest part of me I truly mean it. You made me feel so alive in ways that I never even imagined and you truly showed me so many things about myself that I never even acknowledged. Thank you for making me feel like the most important person on this planet at all times. You made me a better person in every aspect of the phrase. You made me think about the world from new and different perspectives that have caused me to change as an individual. And I like to think that it was all for the better.
I’m not the only one who changed though…Our relationship was perfect, “goals” if you must, until it wasn’t. I’m not exactly sure what happened to us, in fact the only way that I know how to explain it would be to say that we were both growing as individuals but not together. You were busy with the military and I was here in Kentucky trying my best to make it through my freshman year of college. We were both in two completely different places that demanded so much of our time individually. Being apart for so long required certain things from both of us that we just simply were not able to give to one another. We tried so hard to make it work, knowing that when you came home we would be okay. That no matter what was going on, just being with the other made us feel safe. But unfortunately those feelings that you had began to fade, you met someone else, you became a new person. You became yourself.
I don’t hate you for ending things, in fact, I’m not sure that I could ever really truly hate you. You have been my best friend, my boyfriend, my lover, the one person I never wanted to lose. I know that you will most likely never read this, and maybe its for the better, but I just wanted you to know that even though things didn’t work out for us together, I know that in the future we will both meet THE one. We both discovered things about ourselves during our relationship that we will carry with us for years to come. I learned that in order to truly love someone, you must be completely vulnerable with no secrets. I learned that one of the most important things in a relationship is to love your partner the way that they need to be loved, instead of the way that you yourself need to be loved.
I thought you were the one, I always have ever since the 7th grade. Maybe I was a little naive for thinking that we were going to be together forever and that everything would be perfect. Even if we were to still be together today, things wouldn’t be perfect, no relationship is. Thank you for showing me parts of myself that I never knew. Thank you for leaving and forcing me to understand that I am okay without you and that God has bigger plans in store for me. Thank you for making me realize just how strong I really am. I wish you all the best of luck and that you find the girl of your dreams, just like I know that the man of mine is still out there. You will always be my first love, my first real love, and I will always care about you. Thank you for showing me what real love is and for every memory that we have ever shared. Thank you for making me realize who I truly am.
Thank you for making me stronger.
