In life, we come across people that we think may be "The One" and may always be there for us. We get into relationships to be happy, grow closer to someone and experience life with them. We think everything is going great, then everything comes crashing down and falling apart. We try to salvage everything when, in reality, it's not possible, and we have no choice but to give up and move on. It takes time for wounds to heal, but we have to tell our heart to beat again.
I was in a relationship with a girl that I had been friends with, and we started dating after a football game. In fact, I traveled up to Monroe to go to the game and spend time with my family; I had no intention of getting into a relationship that night. We had texted most of the game and then met up to eat after the game, and we started dating after that.
When I started dating her things were great, I was hanging out with her and her family instead of visiting my family when I came into town. It was a long distance relationship, but it was a little easier since she lived close to my hometown. We made a lot of memories when we traveled to Tennessee and Dallas, Texas for spring break. She took me to a Dallas Stars hockey game, my first professional hockey game. We had only been dating about six months at the time, but we started talking about marriage and families and all that jazz. I honestly was happy, but I was scared to even think about that because I wasn't even done with college. I really thought to myself, "Do I really love this girl?"
About a month and a half later, things got rocky between us, and we were always arguing. I tried to salvage what I could to make the relationship work like it had been the last six months, but that all changed when I realized she was cheating on me. When I found out, I was feeling so much but didn't know exactly what to feel. I was hurt, upset, mad, sad, used and I felt betrayed. I felt like my heart had stopped beating. I had to end the relationship because I wouldn't be in a relationship with someone who's doing that to me. I was fed up with the lies and the arguing. She used me to get whatever she wanted. I was blind to it at first, but I finally realized what was going on. I found out that two months after we were broken up, she got engaged to the guy she had been cheating on me with so there was no telling how long they had been seeing each other.
I felt lost even after it all happened, I missed the feeling of being with her, the memories, everything. I wasn't myself, I honestly didn't feel like I was worth anything to anyone. I didn't think I would ever find anyone again. I felt hopeless and like I wouldn't ever be in a relationship again. I had felt this way for several months, and finally, in January, I was like, "You know what? It's time to stop living in the past and thinking about all the bad stuff. It's time to finally move on," and that's what I did. I started living my life again and not worrying about relationships. I told my heart to beat again, and it did. I felt happier than I ever was with her. These last several months I've been the happiest I've ever been, and I've had so many good things happen that I've forgotten about the bad and embraced the good. There're more things out there to see, more people to meet and more to think about. I may be single, but I know that my heart is beating again.
