It is the most selfish thing I've had to do in this world, however I knew it had to be done. I am the one person who looks out for myself, I do not rely on others to do that task for me. I have made it clear that I am who I am, and my values are my values. If you do not like them great, I am glad you have that opinion of me because you are entitled to that.
However, I will not sit there and have to take shit from someone who has no idea what my life is like. I will not let you get under my skin because you are not worth my time, I have more important things to be dealing with than petty issues. So, I am doing what is best for myself, and my future self. Saving myself from having a nervous breakdown just because I cannot handle the person you have become.
If you want to change your ways, that is great, go you. However, I will no longer be a part of that. I am doing what is best for who I need to become, and if you do not like it so be it, it is not your decision to make anymore. I am not a child, I will not be forced into something I am no longer comfortable in.
I was taught as a child that if I was not comfortable in a situation to remove myself from said situation. So, this is doing that. This is me taking a stand for what I believe in my heart to be right. I am not sorry if it hurts you, because I am no longer okay with being pushed around like I am nothing to you.
For once in my life I have to do what is right for me and not everyone else. I am sorry if this hurts people, but I am not sorry for taking a stand for myself and the values I was raised to have.
As I always tell myself through a hard time, if God brought me to it, he will get me through it. I do not hate you, I just want this negativeness out of my life, it is not needed anymore. I pray that you do move on and become a better person than this situation. Because the moments you hit your knees and pray in life are the moments God shows you his mercy and his way. So, here I am on my knees praying that I will not feel hurt by this situation anymore because I know I needed to do what is best for myself and who I am becoming as a person. I hope you do the same, and you take into consideration who you have behind you.
Everyone has trials in their life, but that is exactly it, it is their trials, no one else's to burden to handle. You never really know true strength until you find it in yourself to take a stand for your character and the values that will shape your life. And you realize that this trial will only shape your character even more.
