And why it was perfectly okay for it to have failed.
This has been a hard situation to write about, but I think it's about time I scrounge up all my feelings and thoughts since this all happened. Let me take you back to when my life seemed to be perfect, when it was just the beginning of it falling apart.
I was dating a young man in the Army, and from the moment I met him I knew I was in love with him. I had battled depression for several years, so the feelings he gave me made all my issues disappear. I consider myself a woman of God, and so since I had been battling some troubling things, I felt that God sent him to relieve me of those troubles. I stuck by his side through his three month long basic training, as well as him moving half way across the country to Seattle while I went to school in Alabama. Our relationship had its ups and downs, but c'mon who's doesn't? Seeing him only a few times a year was tough, but I knew that the distance wouldn't stop us form being together. Fast forwarding to March of this year, I went to go visit him during my spring break. We had already been dating for a little over a year, and we had frequently talked about getting married and having a life together. On March 17th, he asked me to marry him and I enthusiastically said yes. Little did I know, it was down hill from there...
We had rekindled the spark in our relationship, it was like we had just started dating again and it was one of the happiest few weeks of my life. But within a two month time span, our relationship had taken a turn for the worst and he decided to leave me. I don't exactly know why he didn't want to be together anymore, and frankly I've come to terms with the fact that he doesn't owe me an explanation. I just know, that I never gave up on him or us and I don't know what else I could've done to fix it all. By now I'm sure you're thinking "well why was it okay for it to fail? Did you have some sort of 'come to Jesus' moment?" And if were being honest here, yeah I did. I had come to terms with losing the person I thought was the love of my life, and I'm here to tell you why it's okay for relationships to not work out.