It has always been around. People, mostly girls, struggling to find self-worth, struggling to love themselves. We hear the same solution throughout the years. People who do not struggle with their identity do not understand what our problem is, they say that we're dumb and we should just love ourselves. This is where I intervene to explain the title of this article. The rock itself is my self-hate, and the jammed door is what stands in between me and my ability to love myself. It seems so obvious, just go through the door! But it's jammed and I have no idea how to get through it.

How hard can that be? They don't understand that all I want is to love myself. All I want is to not compare myself to anyone and accept me for me. But as hard as I try I just can't seem to do that. I go on any form of social media and I see these beautiful girls all over it and it's hard not to compare myself to them. It's hard not to look at hem and say, "Oh her nose is thinner than mine, her waist is tinier than mine, her face is prettier than mine, I bet she is more fun than I am."

Have you ever heard of the term "fake it till you make it?" I have been faking it for a pretty long time. I always make jokes about how awesome I am or how attractive I am and on the outside, it looks like I truly believe it, but on the inside is a voice reminding me of all of my flaws. That isn't entirely true, actually. In the past few years, I have found people who really love me for who I am and see what is inside and they think that I am beautiful and they make me feel like I am unstoppable.

So I lied a bit, I guess my door is slowly becoming unstuck.