I let them in temporarily, I take them on a tour around the best characteristics and then cut them off. Very few can handle the slightest problem that isn’t there’s. Those I have let in, feel obligated to ask if I’m okay, or seek help for me. I don’t want any of that, I don’t need it. . .it is hard to explain to those who don’t understand what I write about. We just want people to talk to. I just ask one thing, don’t ever say “I’m here” and the second I want you-you ain’t there. Another one; don’t open someone up if you plan to leave, or no longer can handle it. WE ARE IN THIS TOGETHER. No matter a friendship/relationship. If someone is struggling to express themselves, that is a sign. There pain is so much that words can’t be put together to let out the negativity. So you ask me why holding it all in is easier. . .

Opening up to someone is like allowing that person to tour your room before cleaning it, seeing that person before you put makeup on and dress up, even calling that person at 2 in the morning because your having flash backs of bad memories-or the loneliness is overwhelming.

Opening up to someone is like kissing them before you brush your teeth, or letting them play with your hair that you haven't washed in a few days. (Ladies-y'all know the wonders of dry shampoo)

Opening up to someone is like allowing them to see your insecurities first, rather than seeing your heart. That person no longer sees you for who you are, but all the problems that you struggle with.

Opening up to someone is like allowing them to have a front row to your life, with free popcorn. You can’t bicker when they get up and walk out, because the door is always open-they just have an easier advantage to leave.

Opening up to someone is like allowing yourself to fall for them quicker than females jump to conclusions. Falling for them doesn’t always consist of the ‘romantic love’ but a comfort and safe feeling. Simply, a friendship.

Opening up to someone is like allowing the conversation to roam freely. Yet, it seems to always go back to pain and sorrowness of your life. The bond is no longer curiosity, but grieve and weight.

Opening up to someone is like allowing a heartbreak to happen that can be easily avoided. By saving friendships and the misery for others. 

Opening up to someone is like allowing regret to grow deep inside your soul. The emotions eventually come out through awkwardness and/or avoidance. It allows separation between humans that should of grown, but rather died.

Songs speak for us all better than we can. The song “Let her go” speaks heavily upon what I’m writing. Not ‘her’ but any who walked into someone’s life. I let y’all(you/he/she/her/him)go as soon as I see the slightest switch up in behavior. I’ve learned through difficult situations to never fight, but walk away. There are many people I have walked away from, but love uncontrollably. I just know that they can’t handle me, they don’t have to tell me through words because everything else about them speaks. Indeed, I’m going to say “I’m fine” even if I’m not. Of course I’m going to say “I’m good, how’re you” rather than strike down lightening bolts of truth. Very few can handle blunt people because of the difference in each world. One may be ending, whilst the other is thriving. Everyone is afraid to catch a virus called love, yet crying out for it. A world full of double standards as I seek to balance on this double edge sword.

Cassandra Reynolds