Dear Ex-Boyfriend
I guess I could just start off by this,"hey there old (boy)friend". I don't really know what happened with us but we were all going to so great then out of the blue it all ended. I still want it all to be a dream and I'm still sleeping. However coming back to reality I know it really happened and you broke my heart into a thousand pieces.
This may just be me? Or maybe it's you? Tonight had to be the hardest night out of these past 5 months not having you by my side. I feel like you just have moved on without giving me an explanation to why all of this happened. I am over here breaking into a thousand pieces that you broke trying to figure out where things went wrong. If this was my fault I am really sorry and hopefully one day you are able to tell me what I did and forgive me.
I wanted to tell you that I really miss you, having those long talks on the phone and the late night hangouts. You kept all of my secrets safe. I felt like I could trust you but now I'm not so sure. You have changed me so much for when we were together. Just to name a few of those; 1) you helped me realized there was more to me than just what I was giving 2) You taught me that not everyone is out to get me 3) You understood me and the way I acted and most of all 4) you loved me for me.
Knowing all of this and all that we had to watch it all crumble in front of us, well in front of me it really hurt me. I have never been this depressed in my longest time. You took away my depression and my anxiety but not having you by my side to tell me that everything is going to be okay it all came rushing back. You taught me new things each and every day.
I know you have moved on to bigger and better things. I am so happy for you that you have found something in your life that is keeping you happy and afloat. Whatever that is I can't wait to see what God brings to you.
With this being said I have learned so much just being on my own. So at the same time, I wanted to thank you for making me a stronger person. I wanted to say thank you for breaking my heart and leaving me here to pick the pieces up all by myself; however, it made me a stronger person to this day. Yes, I will still be struggling with my depression and anxiety and I accepted that it is never going to go away. I have learned to do things on my own and helped me learn to make new friends on my own. So this break-up between us as been hell, but it has also been a learning expereince. So I wanted to say thank you for everything you have done to me.
Thank you,
Your Ex-Girlfriend
