We Sleep To Dream – And To Function

We Sleep To Dream – And To Function

With finals coming up, how would I deal with sleep, the persistent vial?

While I was eating breakfast one morning, my father showed me an article with an interesting title, suggesting the phrase “I’ll Sleep When I Die” could end up being a killer philosophy, as a lack of sleep can result in diabetes and an earlier death. It was because he noticed me going to bed at midnight and waking up at six in the morning to catch the bus to the University of Washington from my home in Lynnwood.

This wasn’t something I saw myself doing in high school—even when I was struggling on a project or procrastinating, going to bed at midnight was rare, as it would be in bed by eleven o’clock. It wasn’t ideal, as a teenager should get between nine to ten hours of sleep a night; yet I felt a source of superiority towards my other classmates, who would work until one in the morning before they fell asleep. This is not considering the swim team; it is said that they woke up at around four to go to the pool and to practice.

I’d like to think that it’s because of the workload which I entangled with—because of papers and readings and translations I have to do, I fully intend to finish them all.

Simultaneously, distractions popped up, pushing bedtime further into the night and homework to the back burner. And every time, I would go to bed defeated, trying to indulge in a certain amount of unconsciousness before the cycle repeats again.

Sleep is something I would usually take for granted—or at least, I would assume I had enough time to do so. Even if I went to bed at two in the morning, where one would have the deepest sleep according to the biological clock, I could assume to get eight hours of sleep on a holiday or a weekend. I know if I did so during the weekdays, I would only sleep for four hours a night, which would not be ideal in any way.

Either way, I find myself nearly dozing off in classes, struggling to pay attention to everything while my eyelids become heavy. I recently took to napping on the bus when I really wanted to read whatever book I want to read for fun. I would read a bit, then zone out. While looking at nothing in particular, I zone out from everything.

I haven’t noticed how a lack of sleep has impacted my life. The need to nap is prominent—while I’ve noticed a lot of people doing so in the library or any other possible location they could, I felt like I didn’t have a major need to do so. That arrogance has also cracked over the last few months.

A lot of people value breaks and weekends for the fact they can hit the golden eight hours of sleep, maybe nine or ten if they are lucky. I assumed I would always get it, but nowadays, I have to discipline myself to get a lot of sleep—like all the little things I have to worry about in this life.

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Everything You Will Miss If You Commit Suicide

The world needs you.

You won’t see the sunrise or have your favorite breakfast in the morning.

Instead, your family will mourn the sunrise because it means another day without you.

You will never stay up late talking to your friends or have a bonfire on a summer night.

You won’t laugh until you cry again, or dance around and be silly.

You won’t go on another adventure. You won't drive around under the moonlight and stars.

They’ll miss you. They’ll cry.

You won’t fight with your siblings only to make up minutes later and laugh about it.

You won’t get to interrogate your sister's fiancé when the time comes.

You won’t be there to wipe away your mother’s tears when she finds out that you’re gone.

You won’t be able to hug the ones that love you while they’re waiting to wake up from the nightmare that had become their reality.

You won’t be at your grandparents funeral, speaking about the good things they did in their life.

Instead, they will be at yours.

You won’t find your purpose in life, the love of your life, get married or raise a family.

You won’t celebrate another Christmas, Easter or birthday.

You won’t turn another year older.

You will never see the places you’ve always dreamed of seeing.

You will not allow yourself the opportunity to get help.

This will be the last sunset you see.

You’ll never see the sky change from a bright blue to purples, pinks, oranges and yellows meshing together over the landscape again.

If the light has left your eyes and all you see is the darkness, know that it can get better. Let yourself get better.

This is what you will miss if you leave the world today.

This is who will care about you when you are gone.

You can change lives. But I hope it’s not at the expense of yours.

We care. People care.

Don’t let today be the end.

You don’t have to live forever sad. You can be happy. It’s not wrong to ask for help.

Thank you for staying. Thank you for fighting.

Suicide is a real problem that no one wants to talk about. I’m sure you’re no different. But we need to talk about it. There is no difference between being suicidal and committing suicide. If someone tells you they want to kill themselves, do not think they won’t do it. Do not just tell them, “Oh you’ll be fine.” Because when they aren’t, you will wonder what you could have done to help. Sit with them however long you need to and tell them it will get better. Talk to them about their problems and tell them there is help. Be the help. Get them assistance. Remind them of all the things they will miss in life.

For help, call 1-800-273-TALK (8255).

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