I recently watched the movie "How to Be Single" starring Dakota Johnson, Rebel Wilson and Leslie Mann. While this movie was not really new and did not have that much appeal to it at first, I watched it because it was on. As I watched this movie, I began thinking of my life. I had spent most of my young life in a relationship; now here I sit single and for the first time, I'm happy about it.
I spent four years in a toxic, on-again and off-again relationship. While this made me stronger, it also made me weaker in many ways. I felt like I depended on men and I needed one in my life at all times. Right out of that relationship, I started dating someone else and it was moving way too quickly for my liking. I mean, one month in and you're already comparing us to a married couple and saying those three words? How about no. After being single for exactly one month, I entered another relationship. This was different. I started dating someone I still consider my best friend. I wasn't fully searching for a relationship then and he came along. I did plan a future with him. However, our ideas for the future were different and we decided to just be friends. Then after nearly a year long relationship, I started dating someone else again fairly quickly. This was kind of my eye opener when I decided I wanted to be single for a while as I never fully spent a lot of time doing so.
While watching this movie, I began to wonder why I focused so much on being in a relationship when I was so happy being single. Maybe I wasn't with the right person, but I never felt the amount of happiness when I was in a relationship that I feel now that I am single. I am spending my time doing what makes me happy.
I like not having to think of a reply to a text or making one apologizing for not replying when I honestly did not feel bad. I love not having to worry about how I look when sending a Snapchat. I love being able to do what I want and not have to make excuses on why I would rather spend a night at home in front of the TV watching the game than on a date. Many don't understand this and even my family think I am foolish, but I am happy.
Maybe one day I will meet someone who will change my life. Maybe my plans I had to get married and start a family fairly young will happen. Maybe I will actually reply to a text when I get it. These are all possibilities and I am not objecting to any of them. If they happen, they happen. I have just decided I am not going to focus on any of these because one day the time will come and for right now, I'm going to live my life being happy and single.
