Growing up i'd had small crushes on girls throughout middle and high school but never anything serious the feelings never felt like real intense feelings. In 2014 i met a girl who had long brown hair and loved the bands i loved and radiated positivity and i like to think she was my first real girl crush. Around the same time i was developing a crush on this wonderful girl i was in a unsafe space mentally and just with the people around me to come out so i repressed any and all feelings and never told her. We remained friends not best friends but not acquaintances. Last summer would prove to be the busiest and most crucial to me finding myself few months of my life. July 6th i went into the city with friends for a concert and she was there. Concerts are my favorite place to see her there's something so beautiful about hearing her talk about the people she loves and seeing the smile that is painted on her face when the artist is on stage signing the songs that mean the most to her. That day was full of holding hands with her in just a friendly way that i would hold anyone's hand and listening to people we both love and everything was good. Really good. After that it was pretty clear to everyone that i adored her. You know how you go into a city and you hear people saying they loved the city because it is full of culture? So is she. She is so proud of her background and of her culture and it's such a rare thing to find someone who totally embraces every part of themselves. She's passionate about the things that matter to her and will never stop fighting for those things it's one of the things i've come to find the most attractive about her. She's gone through a lot and as much as i wish i could make it all go away everything she's been through has made her the person she is today and i can't tell you how much i care about that person. I often find that she's like the color yellow that color never fails to make me feel at ease and to make me feel so full of joy much like she does.