When you're a senior in high school, you begin to wonder why you're still there. You already have a college picked out and your whole future is starting to be at your reach. When I was a senior in high school I was terrible about this. I was always the girl complaining that my future career and the freedom college will give me is so close, yet so far, out of my reach.

Looking back as a second semester college freshman, I wish there were some things I had known while I was going through that time. The time between college and high school is such a grey area where you know you can't turn back and rely on the past yet you can't rely on the future because you aren't in college yet. It's as if a piece or a part of you is conflicted and lost. I wish I had known that the best was yet to come for me. I wish I had known that looking towards that future and getting excited for what college will bring would help me overcome those feelings of confusion.

I wish I had known to put myself out there more and text people first. Looking back, there are a limited number of people I come back to during breaks. I feel as though I was easy to cut people off once high school was nearing its end. Those friendships I made in high school truly meant the world to me, but I was too focused on the friends I was going to make rather than the friends I already had.

I wish I thanked my parents more for providing for me and my grandparents for being my rock. The family members I had living at home turned me into who I am now and looking back, I didn't always treat them with the same kind of kindness they always showed me. They grounded me into reality and helped me feel like a human when other people wouldn't accept it. They showed me selflessness and took the time out of their lives to make sure mine was going smoothly and I wish I hadn't overlooked that.

Finally, I wish I had a more positive look on the world. In high school, it's easy to see the negativity of the world. Hormones overtake each and every one of us and make the transition between grades harder than they should be. But when you are a senior, your emotions are completely mixed and no clear emotion can ever be shown. Some days you get really excited to move out and be your own person. Some days you get excited out anger and angst. Most of all, sometimes you get nervous and negative about your current situation and anxious for what the future will give you. I wish I could go back and reassure myself that everything will be okay and the nerves will only be temporary. I wish I could go back and show the positive sides of being on your own rather than focusing on what's temporarily scary.

Senior year is one of the oddest and most exhilarating years you will experience, but treasure every moment of it because this year is only the end of one chapter, there's still the rest of the book to read.