On February 22, 2016. My World Changed Forever.
I had been bullied from 7th grade all the way up to the beginning of 10th grade. 9th grade was by far my worst and hardest year physically, emotionally, and mentally.
On February 22, 2016; I tried to kill myself.
The night it happened tons of people were in the ER waiting room to see how I was. I wish things had turned out completely different. I didn't die because my mom found out about my overdose before they could take enough effect to do anything.
The Semicolon represents you, yourself being the author and your life is the story.
I was tired. I felt abandoned and alone. I thought I was nothing. I wasn't enough. All of these feelings hit people right in the heart way too often and that isn't how it should be.
I soon, after all, this had to be put onto depression medicine, which I have been taking for 2 years now.
Countless days of having my parents sleep in my room with me seemed like forever. The Doctor made them take everything sharp out of sight because I self-harmed.
Most people say self-harming yourself doesn't help in any way but to someone who has felt like they weren't enough no matter what they did, feeling your skin be hurt instead of your heart was a big reliever.
I was told countless times that I was going to hell for what I did but I am a strong believer that God has a special place in Heaven for the ones who choose to take their own life.
My testimony is telling the story of what happened to me. I don't tell my story to try and get sympathy. I tell my story for the ones who are going through exactly what I went through for what seemed like forever to know that there is a light at the end of the tunnel. No matter how hard it gets. No matter how dark it gets. Never. Give. Up.
People are cruel. They will try so hard to tear someone down that they see thriving. What people say and do hurt. No one realizes how much their words affect people and situations.
Be Kind. Be Nice. Tell Someone that they look pretty. Tell them they matter. Tell them you are there for them. You may not know it but you could save their life that day.
And, to the ones who feel like how I did and still do on certain days:
You Matter.
You Are Enough.
You Are Loved.
You Are Cherished.
You Are Important.
You Are Beautiful.
You Are exactly how God made you.
God doesn't make trash and you are definitely a masterpiece.
You Are a Warr;or
“For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord “plans to prosper you and not to harm you plans to give you hope and a future." — Jeremiah 29:11
