I've always had a weird outlook on relationships and love, especially the whole love at first sight thing. I do not know if it is just what I saw growing up or just because I have a slightly pessimistic outlook on life. I do not necessarily believe in love. I think it is wonderful when someone is in love, actually in love, and can experience those feelings and more. But for me, I just don't believe in it.

I am not bitter about love either because mostly I've never been in love with anyone before so I have no real reason to be bitter about it per say. I just don't understand love as a whole, especially with how my generation views it, handles dating, and more. My generation especially and even the generation before us aren't too worried about showing real emotions or being in a relationship that you want to be in longer than two weeks.

And I am not saying that I will never be in love because I don't believe in it. I am just simply acknowledging that it would take a lot for me to say the words "I love you" to someone. This is both because of the fact that I don't take it lightly, I truly want to mean it, and I just don't want to give that type of "power" to someone when it isn't true in my heart and mind. I just don't think that the words "I love you" should be just thrown around.

It takes a lot to be completely vulnerable to a person and I know a lot of people who don't care about that fact and will stomp all over their significant other. It's all just a battle of who can be petty the most or just straight up rude when it comes to dating nowadays.

The ability to "Netflix and chill" every weekend doesn't equate to love. I equate love with being so honest and open with another person that you both know each other better than you know yourself, willing to compromise and work with that person no matter the situation, and supporting that one person in your life.

I just don't see that enough with relationships today. I see people jumping from relationship to relationship and telling their current squeeze that they can't live without them even though they've only been dating for two weeks. I just can't believe in something that everyone throws around so lightly like it's nothing. We talk about love like it is some magical and wonderful thing but then when we fall in love, we don't do everything in our power to keep it or show the other person that we still love them always.

I just don't believe in something that we act as if it's no big deal. I understand that when you're young, especially in your 20's, that you should venture and date many people to see what or who your type is. But I'd rather be with one person that I loved so much forever who made me happy and we helped each other grow than dating a string of guys.

I wish to one day be in love with someone and spend the rest of my life with them. I just don't believe in that now, and no that doesn't make me bitter or jaded to it, I just can't believe in something so powerful and amazing as that until I experience it truly for myself.