Remember when we were friends?

I remember first meeting you and hating you. I didn't have a reason for hating you considering we never talked before. Although we had mutual friends, our paths never crossed until middle school. After two years of seeing each other occasionally while we would get invited to the same place, did we become friends. I eventually let my guard down and let you into my life. I told you things that no one has ever known about me because I trusted you. You had a lot of friends, so obviously there was something about you that people liked and trusted. Like all of them, I fell for the same tricks that they did.

While your smile was kind and friendly, it was just a mask to hide your real smile, which was twisted and evil. As you started losing friends, I would receive warnings about what kind of person you actually were. I thought that our friendship was different. I thought that the people were dramatic and didn't take it into consideration that you just caused drama. I wish I saw that before.

As the years went on, I turned into one of your puppets that you manipulated and took advantage of whenever possible. Because of you, I missed out on opportunities that could have put me ahead in life. But because that meant putting me ahead of you, you wouldn't stand for it. Some friends that I had a lot in common with became distant friends that I occasionally see on the street because of you. If they weren't friends with you anymore, then why should I be friends with them? There was one time when my boyfriend (at the time) told me that you were bad for me. As someone who was just one of you followers, I thought he was just being dramatic. I should have listened to him then.

There were some times that I thought that you would grow out of the "occasional" mean behaviors. Yet, I would always hope that we would stay friends forever. You were my best friend. The type of friend that even if I wasn't enjoying myself, I would pretend I was for the sake of our friendship. I thought that if we weren't friends, then I wouldn't know what to do with myself.

Now that we aren't friends, I'm happier than before. I thought I wouldn't have any friends without you. Yet, without you putting in your two sense, I have made more friends and kept ones that I can see being friends with for a long time. Since you and I have stopped talking, I realized who I would actually be upset not talking to anymore. You aren't one of them.

Remember when we were friends? I sometimes wish I didn't.