It's getting a bit chiller out there, all the warm and cuddly holidays are creeping up. With all this. comes either one of two, cuffing or ghosting. You're either getting into a relationship or trying to wean yourself out a one. Family members asking about a significant other, even though you don't have one, but you're kind of talking to someone so that must count as something right?
Relationships are scary though. I would even say scarier than clowns. At least with clowns, it's just once that your heart jumps out of your chest and your stomach drops. It's a one and done, you EXPECT for it to be scary. You can't say the same thing about relationships. With relationships, it's a whole different story.
Getting to know someone is easy, understanding their habits is easy, the scary part is letting that someone in. By letting someone in, you're essentially giving them your heart, your soul, your mentality right in their hands. They now have the ability to destroy everything you've been working so hard to keep together, to keep sacred.
You never let anyone in because maybe you're afraid of commitment, maybe you're afraid of being hurt, or maybe you're just afraid to let someone love you. You're vulnerable, and that's scary because then your mind starts to fill with doubt. What if they leave? What if I'm not good enough?
You can't help but think that looking at your past. And that often causes more concern because this person may be saying all the right things...but you've heard it before and look what happened then.
Someone can say everything you want to hear and can show their intentions are good, but you still question it because what if it's good now but later on, it won't be? It's a constant internal battle.
It's almost scary how good or right something can feel because then you're just waiting for it to all fall apart. And it shouldn't be, but that's just what you're used to.
But why let a good thing slip away because of the past? Keep your guard up always, but don't let that scare you away. Because the past is the past and all you can do is learn from it. If it happens again, then at least you can say you tried.
Nothing comes easy, especially relationships. But you tend to learn the most about yourself from them.
Relationships can be scary, but not knowing what could have been because you were too scared is even scarier.
