Words can not explain how hard it is to lose someone you've spent so much time with, and have made so many memories with. As it is very well known, things change and people change, which can change a friendship before your very eyes. Next thing you know, you don't have that one person who you can text random, pointless things to. More importantly, you don't have someone you can talk to about the deep things in life either. You don't have that person you can call and they'd be over in ten minutes to eat junk food and watch terrible shows on TV with. This is probably one of the worst feelings you could have. After all, in the words of Gnash, friends can break your heart too.
Days, weeks, and months could go on, and you could still be without this friend. Whether it ended because of a fight, or because of just plain old changing and drifting, eventually you will be forced to move on. Or if you're in the wrong, maybe you already have... but that best friend is still in the back of your mind.
You see them around school, and maybe you're still civil. Or maybe you don't see them at all. Either way, things weren't as they used to be and you start to miss the past when things were simpler and you only had each other.
I have been the friend to lose her best friend. And I have been that friend for half of my senior year. My best friend and I only had each other our junior year, and while sometimes it could be upsetting for both of us, it was more than enough. This year came along, and that all changed- and it was all my fault, long story short.
While I was off gallivanting with new friends, she was still trying to be there for me this entire year and I completely disregarded it when I shouldn't have, and I didn't deserve her forgiveness, in my opinion. However, with every bad situation comes something good to replace it, if you have enough hope. Recently I realized who I have been missing and I told her, and we've reconnected despite how undeserving I felt. This is something I'd highly recommend for someone who has been distant with someone they care about- do it before it's too late. Reconnecting with someone you've previously been close to is one of the best feelings- almost as though everything was askew for a long time, and suddenly everything feels right again.
No fight, argument, or even drifting is worth losing someone important to you. Whether it be pride or anger keeping you from making up with someone, you have to let that go. Recently I've learned that arguing is pointless, and the best thing you can do to be happy is to build back up your burned bridges, and enjoy life rather than look for things to make you unhappy. That's what I did when I reconnected with her, and my soul is definitely happier for it.
