Write an article they said, just one.

I'm sitting here, music a lull in the background.

It's been hours of typing and deleting and typing again.

Every word seeming worse than the one before.

How do I write an article when my thoughts are racing?

When it seems I can't focus on anything at all;

when my emotions are out of control,

when Christmas is just days away, and I feel less festive than ever before.

Why does Christmas feel like just another day?

Have I become cynical or heartless

or maybe I'm just tired?

Tired of the heartache and sadness that Christmas brings.

Tired of watching those who have everything this holiday and then watching those who can't afford a warm blanket.

Tired of Watching families getting cozy by the fire, and other families falling apart.

I'm sitting here with each second fleeting away wondering if what I write will even matter.

Does anyone even care what I have to say?

Do my racing thoughts and lack of Christmas cheer have any place on the paper?

Can I find the joy and childlike wonder that Christmas used to bring me?

Can I type words that matter and not just useless nonsense?

Can I quiet my thoughts long enough to write a sentence that makes sense?

Write an article they said, just one.