At 15 I never thought of love
At 13 I lost my Serenity
At 15 I lost plenty
My fight has always been against me
Self-sabotage has been the tea
Sipping on my issues within myself
Asking for the one that never tears up help
Funded education by the grant called Pell
State of Illinois has saved this kid many times
Education has better this mans rhymes
Every year a letter of more and more doubt is signed
As the years go, so does my mind
In a way that you may think is fine
To where the child is the man
To where there is a plan
The plan is magnificent in its making
To where people are generally interested and not faking
There is a book
It has been laid out by the cook
The cook is me
It is everything I have ever needed for me
Bridging the wide gap between imagination and reality
It’s healthy it’s my green tea
My whole life I have felt unfree
Free and unfree but belonging to nobody
Spelling out confusion in this life like a spelling bee
Calling on others, myself, and hate with no caller id
Mysterious veils of truths shrouded in emotionally wrote hyperboles
Be safe and confine in me
Be me and deny in me
Be me and win in me
Be me and lose it all with me
Be me and crush everyone with me
Be me and come back with me
Be me and try next time with me
Sit off in the distance and sail the Caribbean Sea
Caribbean Sea inhabit-anted by me
By my hopes and dreams
You would see the positive and negative extremes
You would see the effect of many regimes
You would get to see my life and it’s theme
You would see that everyone has their teams
As you sail the sea you will see me flying by the waves
Because to energy I am a slave
Always always somehow sending shockwaves
Because it’s the experience that saves
Waiting waiting for me to fall to my grave
Growing up is such a hard thing to do
At 23 I have gained and lost everything
At 23 I am me
At 23 I will win everything
Me At 23 you will see
In 2018 winning is me and today I am winning