Love is one of the most beautiful things that could ever happen to a person. I, myself, have had my fair share of loves in my 19 years. Some of them were just surface level kinds of love, when you just barely get to know each other. Others were so deep because you both have been through so much together that you can’t see yourself without them. All of which were completely different but all of them left me completely heart broken.

 I am the type of person that when I get feelings for someone, which doesn’t happen often, I go all in. You have to tell yourself that this time is different, and you aren’t going to fall so quickly. Then, you find yourself just diving in head first and falling in love. Loving someone is wanting to know how there day has been, wanting to know everything about them, and being there for them in there darkest hours and being a light in their lives. It feels like your whole body is on fire and your heart physically aches when you aren’t with them. The thought of them just makes you so happy and everyone starts to notice that you are happier, too. You put that person before everyone else, sometimes you lose some of the people that are close to you. You want to make sure they get home safe, that they are eating every day and they know that you care. You put all of yourself into this one person and it feels amazing. Loving someone can put you on top of the world. As John Green once wrote in The Fault in Our Stars, “I fell in love like you fall asleep; slowly and then all at once.”

When you have the ability to love people deeply, you always end up getting tossed aside and usually forgotten. That is the part that hurts the most. You have such strong feelings for this person that you would be willing to push them out of a way of an oncoming train to save them. Trying to get over someone you love, is one of the hardest thing that you will ever have to do. You actively must stop thinking about the person that made your insides feel like they are on fire. You have to deal with the fact that the person is off living their life not batting an eyelash about how crappy you feel. Every single person you love, you end up caring too much and it bites you in the butt every time. All alone to pick up the pieces of your broken heart that you wore on your sleeve for that person.  While they are off with someone else and you haven’t even cross their mind. You feel sick to your stomach, like you might throw up if you think about them one more time. You sit in your room with all the lights off, curled into a ball crying yourself to sleep for the third night in a row.

It sucks. I won’t sugarcoat it, it sucks so much. Being heartbroken is the worst feeling that I have every felt. If you were to ask me if I knew at the beginning of the relationship that I would end up being cheated on, or verbally abused or just left in the dust, would I stay with them? I would say yes, I would stay with them. Each relationship I have been in, has taught me something about me that I wouldn’t have been able to do myself. Each person brought something out in me that has made me a stronger, more independent person. Yes, I got hurt but I survived and thrived. Now, I have the mentality that I am going to dive in because I have been hurt so many times but maybe it won’t happen this time. If I do get hurt, it won’t matter because I have the picked up the pieces of my broken heart so many times that I wouldn’t mind getting hurt again. That just means that I am one heartbreak closer to finding my true love. 

So, if you are that person that always falls in love too quickly and gets hurt in the end then here is my advice to you: 1. Always love with your whole being, never anything less. 2. Know what you are worth and don’t accept anything less and 3. It is perfectly okay to be in love with someone no matter what anyone thinks about the other person. You don’t need them to justify your feelings.