As I stop and look around, my life has become a constant marathon with classes, work, sorority, friends, and everything else. My friends have also become consumed by responsibilities, and everyone seems so worn. It seems I can't get a full grip on myself because I am tripping over everything that comes my way. Recently, I have decided to gain my life back while also not giving up any of my obligations. It's definitely a work in progress and always will be, but I am making steady progress.
The other night I was speaking to one of my older girlfriends about life. We were catching up and having a nice little gossip session. I started talking about everything I am doing and how I am just trying to make a name for myself. Because on top of everything I am doing, I am still trying to stay connected in the music scene by going to shows, shooting, and writing. She then told me something I will now never forget.
She said, "You can't work for the world. You have to work for you. Don't let life kick you in the ass. Kick it in the ass. Finish every day knowing you sucked life's dick that day." I know the visual might be a little intense but it made the message clear.
For years, I have been letting life take control of me. I have been viewing everything as something I HAVE to do to be able to get a certain result. I should be looking at things and thinking, "Okay, I am going to totally kill it. I am going to kick life's ass today, and I will feel great doing it." I am in control of my own life, and from what I have heard from adult's, having a general plan is great but worrying too much about my path is pointless because life always has something else in mind.
I have promised myself I am no longer going to let life roll all over me. I am going to live to the fullest while also making my dreams come true. Whether I end up in a tour bus, writing for a publication, or sitting in a classroom at grad school, I will be on top.
