Friends, Family, and Loved Ones,

I'm sorry. I know you’ve heard me say it before, but I really mean it. I promise, I have not forgotten how important you are to me. In fact, I don’t think you’ll ever truly realize how much you mean to me. You may not see it the way I do, but everything I do, I do for you. You’ve helped me push past the hard edges, and supported me through the smooth sailing. I am where I am today because of you, so don’t forget that.

I know we haven’t seen each other as much as I’d like, and I know we barely talk, but I promise my excuses are real. I may say “no, sorry I’m busy” or “I don’t have time” every time you invite me out, but trust me, I wish more than anything to be with you. Working full time, taking summer classes, attending school in the fall and the spring, plus being involved in extracurricular activities is a lot. Notice that list said nothing about sleeping or being social at all.

How do you do it? I applaud you for juggling all you do and still making time to be social. Do you have any advice for me? I am crumbling… slowly but surely, I am breaking and crashing. A lot of people think I have it together; people think I have it all organized and I’ve mastered balancing it all out. You know more than anyone else though, that I don’t have it all figured out. All the nights I was distant, complained to you, and cried myself to sleep while you rubbed my head. Those moments were me screaming inside for help. So please, honestly, I’ll take any advice you may have to help me survive.

The worst part is, I am only in college and I am already straining our relationship. So what happens when I am an “adult” and I get married and have kids? Do we completely lose contact? Do you disappear from my life like I have from yours now? Please tell me that’s not the truth… even if it is, I beg that you lie to me, so I can have some faith.

Sometimes being a busy bee is the best thing in my life. It keeps me driven, I stay on top of all my tasks, and although I don’t ask for it, sometimes I am recognized for my hard work. But who do I share these triumphs with when I constantly tell the ones I love that I am too busy? Will you still stand by me?

Please, accept this apology! I promise you that if I was superwoman and knew how to balance it all, you’d be the first person I'd take the time to talk to. I don’t want to spend this time together talking about me, I want to know all about your life and all that you have going on. I guess what I am trying to say, is no matter where we are in life, know that I am sorry for all the times and memories I missed out on. Know though, I will always care and I will always be here for you. It doesn’t matter what I have going on in my life, if you need me, I will find a way to be there for you, it may be just a phone call if I can’t be there in person with you, but I will be there.

With love forever,

Your friend/family member who’s always busy