To say my sophomore year of college has been the best would be a true statement, but it has also been filled with so much heartache. Let's rewind for a moment: I lost the majority of my friends and my high school love fall semester, and in the spring semester, I was not rehired as a Peer Mentor, as well as not being elected president of the organization I'd been planning for months.
This year has been hard.
There have been so many times when I wanted to throw in the towel and stay in bed instead of going to class and facing my problems. There have been so many days that I just wanted to give up and go home instead of having to face the people who caused me hurt. In the last couple months, there have been so many doubts, worries, and what-ifs running through my mind that its gotten to the point where I don't even know what I'm doing each day.
Overcoming all these feelings and emotions is beyond difficult because it consumes you completely; it takes over your every thought and all you can assume is that you're just not good enough.
But you know what, I am good enough.
I an capable.
I am organized.
I am a driven individual who strives for success on a daily basis.
I care for others before I care for myself.
Just because something you've worked for doesn't work out, does not mean you're not worthy.
Now I know that is hard to accept, trust me I've spent the last 36 hours so troubled I didn't think I was going to get out of bed this morning, but I did. Why? Because one day I'm going to be an awesome teacher, and one day I'm going to show my worth and everything I've dedicated my life to will be worth it.
My advice to you is to look towards the future when you're facing failure or disappointment. Look towards your long-term goals because by doing so, you'll be able to focus yourself on a new goal and that disappointment will diminish. Of course, this is easier said than done, but once you're able to recognize that there is more outside your current situation, you'll be able to move forward.