I can’t sit still for long periods of time. But catch me on a different day, I might be able to sit and do something for hours. I can draw and create and write until I fall asleep. Then there are the days that there are no ideas. Those are the days that I am most organized and can spend hours getting work done and cleaning and scheduling. A slightly more productive person shows up and takes over for a couple of hours but then some of my best creative ideas have come out of the times that I spent being productive.

Sometimes I want to be around everyone and interacting having fun and laughing. Other times all I want is to be alone and just do what I want. There are times that those two ideas collide and it just becomes a mess. I am around people but do not necessarily interact a lot. Those are the days I just go home because I am not contributing much.

There are the outfits that get changed for bigger and brighter and the entirely different wardrobe for the days or weeks that I just want to dress business casual or in all black. The angsty artist, preppy posh, chic student, trend on point, boots and hat, and anything in-between.

Then it comes down to the big question. What do you want to do with your life or career. The easiest answer is everything. Part of me will always wants to be doing something else. It is the nature of who I am. I like to be silly and paint and draw and just put into my work 100 percent creatively. It goes the exact opposite as well. I get big dreams and ideas that academically or career wise are lofty but I just want to keep making those strides.

An Atypical personality does not mean that I won’t find what I want to do, it just means that I will have a harder time finding something that fits. It is the most difficult thing to deal with because I may fit many places but none will ever feel 100 percent right. It never feels like a balance can be achieved either; it always feels like I have to give up a piece of myself no matter where I am.