Dear the person who I used to be,

Well, past me that is. Things are going to change dramatically and that is me sugarcoating it for you. In the next year, your life is going to take a 360 and then plummet to the bottom. Don't be scared. I am standing on the other side of this valley and I can tell you that things are going really good now, but there are some things I need to remind you of.

First of all, stop lying to yourself because it's easier than accepting things. That's one of the main things I hate about who I used to be. It's going to happen. Eventually, things take a turn for the worst and you need to learn to let that be.

For example, it is perfectly okay if that guy you like doesn't like you back. I know it feels like the end of the world and I know that you wish he would give you a chance, but it isn't happening. Also, when you do find a guy that is interested in you, don't lie to yourself and call it love when it's possession. That lie will only hurt you and will not make the relationship better.

Secondly, you are worth something. I know you spent the past five years giving yourself this fake confidence, but the minute you step into a relationship, you forget that. You forget that you have to take care of yourself too and it takes a toll on you. You have to remember that you are just as important. The things you want, are just as important as anyone else's.

Third, it's okay to be your age. You don't have to constantly be this perfect human you think everyone sees you as. You are human. You are going to make poor choices, and have to take the blame sometimes. It is never okay to make someone else pick up the pieces so you don't look bad. You are young and have no idea what you are doing.

Next, I wanted to give you some life lessons about love. You only get one life. Do you realize the importance of this statement? You will beat yourself up for loving with everything you have, but don't you dare lose that. You are going to get hurt, but it is worth it. If you don't love with every bit of yourself then you are not giving it your fullest potential. I know it seems foolish now, but hold on to it for dear life.

Can I be honest with you? I didn't write you this letter to give you advice. I wrote this letter to forget you. You lied to yourself until you started to believe things, you acted ten years older than you were, and tried to short yourself when it came to love.

The person I used to be was terrifying. I thought I had it all together and I was doing life the right way, but then it all came crashing down. It wasn't until I stood on the outside that I realized the damage I was doing to myself.

All in all, I wrote you this letter as a goodbye. I can't go back and change who you were, or what happened. You were someone I barely knew and I don't want to know again. The world is rough, but you are going to make it out on the other side with a much better life. I promise you that. I can't go back in time to save you, but I can't hold on to all the mistakes you made.

Goodbye,

The new me