When I first met you, your smile brightened my day. It was indeed a cloudy day on the band field but as soon as you smiled at me it felt like a warm ray of sunshine. You were one of the popular guys, and I was just a little rookie who didn’t know a single person. You guided me to my first spot and talked with me while I marched to my second spot. You never had a frown on your face throughout that whole day. When practice was over you gave me all my music and my coordinate sheet, so I could be able to go over my spots for tomorrow. You walked with me back to the band room and showed me where to put my instrument. After, we walked out you saw who my brother was and you jumped for joy and immediately you ran and gave him a hug. Yes, I found a common denominator between us! After, walking back from practice almost every single day that first week, you had my back when it came to the first game. The director said that I was not supposed to march that week but you spoke up and said that I deserved to march! All your talk helped me march my first game and it was so amazing! I was in absolute tears because I actually did it on my own. The season ended and I didn’t see you since I was just in middle school.
The next season started: I had friends now and was in high school. We had band together which was quite amazing. It was your last year of high school even though I didn’t want to think about it. One day we had a parade, and you saw that I was really depressed. You ran up to me and gave me the biggest hug ever pulled me back and said it’ll be okay let me know if I have to fight someone. You kissed me on my forehead. We finally exchange numbers texting all day and night. You were always the first to text me. I always texted you first if I saw that you were not at school. Towards the middle of the season you started liking another girl. I was devastated. I thought you would always like me. She was way prettier than me and had a much bigger smile. You asked me for my advice and of course I gave it to you even though it hurt so much. Every day I would tell you I needed to talk just so I could finally tell you how I truly felt. I chickened out every single time.
The next year you liked another girl. Once again you asked for my advice. I gave it to you half-heartedly. Y’all started dating and I started regretting everything I had ever told you. I finally graduated from high school and you came to the graduation. You gave me the biggest hug and you whispered, “I’ve always wanted to pick you.” I moved back with a small tear in my eye not wanting to let you know the full truth that I was with someone and actually happy this time. I smiled, gave you a hug back, and walked away. I expected you to follow me but you just looked and put your head down.
I started college, and it was great at first. Then I began to think about you and our past conversations and then I remembered what you whispered in my ear. I hurried to find my phone to finally confess my true feelings, but I realized I had lost your number. I ran to Facebook but we weren’t friends on there. I lost my only chance. The next summer you sent me a message saying you will be attending the college I was at and that we should meet up soon for lunch. Yes, I had another chance I was ecstatic. We exchanged numbers again and text non-stop for days. Then they stopped and the Facebook messages stopped. I thought I lost you but there you were following behind me one day as I walked to the dining hall. I asked for you to join me and my friends, but you declined because you had to go to class. Later that night, I texted you saying lets have lunch. We made date. I was finally going to tell you. I was so excited! You texted me the night before saying you felt sick couldn’t make it. So we decided to shoot for the first of the New Year. You said you would definitely meet up with me then.
This time, we couldn’t make a new date because you left this world unexpectedly. I don’t think I have ever cried so much in my life. I never got the chance to finally tell you in person. I never got the chance to see your beautiful smile again. The only thing I want to tell you is that I will always love you day in and day out.
